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Tue, 01 Nov 2005 00:38:11 GMT

I haven't updated in ages.
Theres not much to say I'm over this journal thing.
I love life.
I love to drive.
I love my friends.
The best are Sara Casi and Lindsey!
=)=)=)=)

I want to be a pickle.

KSHFLSKFSD

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 23:33:00 GMT

LEAVE ME COMMENTS NOW

love alicia

dfg

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 13:31:53 GMT

yeah i'm alive...

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 01:44:01 GMT

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xblindxtearsx: omg 20 msgs??
xblindxtearsx: ROFL i heart you babe

ahhhhh!!! little me!!

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 15:06:57 GMT

have i ever told you who my favorite motions are?!

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 21:09:54 GMT

Casi-the best friend i never asked for but got.. damn serendipity. love you moer than anything, cept my daddy, boys, peanut butter, shopping, music, my dog, my cat, my house, my car, my camera... JUST KIDDING you are up there!!

bre-the sister i never wanted. enough said. lve you

Karissa- you don't read this i don't have to say anything other than i love youuuu and yu are the bestt

SARA-DONT CALL ME A BEE HEAD!! I CANT SAY ENOUGH AND I CANT SAY IT LOUD ENOUGH. you are one of my bestest seriously we have so many insides and shit i can't get enough of you!

Regina- the whole reason I use the word motion. SCORE. ;) spread the awarness<3

matty B- True friend right there best ever seriously i can count on you to give me the honest answer. I love exchanging jams with you!!

Jesse Wayne- my one and only BITCH. best best friends we have to work on it again i remember when i couldnt go a day without talking to you.

Audrey- greatttt. mad rad to the end.

Adam- fucking black man eating a potatoe chip. too bad you can't trip for shit. just kidding. bro+sis=forever

CHICA AKa nikki p- best ever i understand you, you understand me.. love youuuu

KANKAN- my only oneeeeeeeee!! best fuckin azn nukka there is <3 word

jess g- i missssss you!! and i want pizza again like NOW. much love xoxox

blah blah blah and everyone else its too hottttttttttt to type now
((whoa man i'm getting excited))

best inside joke in the world

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 03:11:54 GMT

Alicia: hello bride
Casi J: hello groom
Alicia: how are you
Casi J: anxious for the honeymoon how are u dear?
Alicia: preparing my vows
Casi J: awesome.. you will love mine
Alicia: awsome
Alicia: haha we are corny :-D
Casi J: i know my pookie wookie dookie shmookie
Alicia: aww cuddly bunny snuggles i told you not to call me that
Casi J: im sorry i just cant help myself
Alicia: thats okay how was the bacholorette party
Casi J: awesome.. we had sooo much fun. we even had a stripper! how was the bachelor party hun?
Alicia: it was classy, a few drinks my closest friends and couple dozen strippers.
Alicia: i mean a couple as in two
Alicia: not two dozen jsut two
Casi J: haha you are soo cute when you are tired
Alicia: yeah snuggly bunny this is getting so creepy
Casi J: lol i know

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 17:29:31 GMT

i'm sitting here eating a cookie with chocolate.. and i dont like chocolate

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 01:01:23 GMT

I have a barrier up. I give up on guys. This summer I don't want to like anyone. I like them then they don't understand me, get mad, and then like my friends. Oh well thats life. Today I had complications with my mom and I found i had no'one to call. Whatever eff boys eff relationships eff you.

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 01:55:19 GMT

DAVE IS AMAZING

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 01:27:12 GMT

Capandra Jamstam Is my BESTESTESTSTSETESTSETSETEST friend in the whole world and I LOVE HER!!
<333 always o-lisha mcdougal

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 22:00:52 GMT

Yeah we got into a car accident yesterday... it was bad

breaks locked up

causing the car to spin out

did about 1 and a half spins..hit the wall that was on the right side of the road

with the driver's side of the car....

right side of the road...left side of the car

the car was facing the opposite direction as the car was going when we hit the wall the 1st time

then spun

at least one full time and ended up with

the rear end through a stone wall

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 19:37:53 GMT

I just am tired of this.
I've had enough.

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 22:14:40 GMT

This is for all the people who think that they aren't worth much. This is for the people who make our lives easier day by day. This is for the people who make my life harder as I go on. This is for the people who let me be who I am. This is for the people who are yet to meet me. This is for the people who don't know where their true love it yet. This is for the people that just broke up. This is for the people who among all people have touched someones heart dearly. This is for the people who just can't bring themselves to tell the truth. This is for the people I've fought with. This is for the people above all people who have became who they truly want to be. This is for the people who wake up and realize they need the better grades, they need to get rid of some friends, they need to go to church, they need to be commited to life, they need to just freak out for once and say GET OUT OF MY FACE! This is for the people who don't know me, who know me, who treasure every moment with me, who hate every moment with me. This is for the people who just can't figure out what they did wrong with life, and just need a helping hand. Your not alone, you can't be afriad, you can't back down. Just go on.

Just go on...

whoa

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 00:16:25 GMT

"Stay Now"

Daylight comes, daylight comes
And you've gotta go
Breaks my heart, breaks my heart
To have to watch you go
Wish I knew, wish I knew
When you'll be back again
However long, it's just too long
Until we meet again

Stay now, stay now
Just a little more
Coz this love, this love
Is what living's for
Stay now

Hide in bed, sheets overhead
Blocking out the sun
Feel like we are marooned at sea
Away from everyone
And I, I hate to say goodbye
I, want you to touch me one more time

Stay now, stay now
Just a little more
Coz this love, this love
Is what living's for
Stay now, stay now
Just a little more
Coz this love, this love
Is what living's for
Stay now
Stay now
Stay now

ps.. i want input abt what i wrote below like what did you think when you read it?

Alot...

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 19:30:46 GMT

I know several times before I have said that I have almost completely figured out alot of things, but I know I haven't. Everyday you do learn something else that is supposed help you out. Its like you have to start comprehending every little peice of life before you put them all together and say, 'here this is what i know...' its not usually like that. My mom and I got into a huge fight today and she figured oh Alicia may be doing this Alicia may be doing that but the thing is I wasn't and what i wanted her to learn was the fact that I'm not like every other teen out there my angst has a different source. She wanted to get through to me that I should stop feeling so guilty about everything everyone else does, and that I don't always have to solve their problems because mine don't get solved in the process. You may be the child, you may be the adult but you have to realize that you will learn things from the other one all the time. I learned that I shouldn't really hold anything against anyone because I don't know if they feel guilty about it or not. My mom learns from me things that she didn't know, like how to deal with certain people. We sort of run off each other. There is no way of really actually like blocking out your parents, because you live by their mistakes and you feed off them like they are your own. That way you know not to do those things and even if you do you take a step back and say whoa look I was wrong. I've always said that my parents weren't friends to me but like they aren't supposed to they won't close their eyes to you and say go do what you want. Some of my limitations are stupid like no makeup, and no dating, but I've learned to cope and in that way I grew out of the stages I went through. Without dating I really didn't have to explain myself to someone when I went through that whole stupid stage of depression, it made me realize I can do things alone. Life doesn't need crutches. You'll have friends that are there for you NO MATTER WHAT, but then you have the ones who are having their own problems and then blow you off after you've helped them and its like you were left there to drown. Your parents and your siblings are the things that will always be there. They can't really leave you they are forced to be there. Life was set out so perfectly, man and woman, brother and sister. You were essentially meant to be.

nothing

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 00:13:39 GMT

Went to the mall with Casi yesterday saw this goregous ring and Dean and Nick got them for us yay im excited. mhmm and now im bored and stuff and saw some pics from last night that really hurt me like my heart broke idk why but yeah. bye now «««aliciaººººººººººº

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 19:40:15 GMT

so basically im...
father sides
capeverdian
portuguese
chinese
my mothers
english
french
irish
norweigen
indian(native)

wicked awsome combo :)

just cas my name is alicia... and i wrote this

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 20:01:42 GMT

I've got a gun to your head

Soon I'll make you go

Please don't do it, for i love you so...

I've got a gun to your head

Don't worry you wont be alone

I'll go with you

I've got a gun to your head

Please just let go...

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 23:57:14 GMT

you used to lie to me then say goodbye to me i turned ur picture to the wall i dont wanna see you anymore...

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 18:29:32 GMT

unwanted...
I call her phone just to hear her voice.
I call her name wishing she would answer.
I stay out longer to see if I'll get in trouble.
I scream outloud to see if I'll get yelled back at.
I question outloud and hope for an answer.
I play the message just to know what bad I've done.
I touch her photo dry a silent tear.
I whisper her song maybe she will hear.

yeah i'm in this icky mood wrote that just now. i really feel bad abt not being with my mom anymore but im not sure what i can do about it. im such abrat for making her do that. i cant blame her she was worried =/

i wrote this...

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 22:30:55 GMT

i forgot to love you i forgot to
but then once i knew i could have been closer
im sry please dont give up on me
i forgot to love everybody
i forgot to show you wat it meant to be alive

i miss the way you said that everythign had its meanings
i softly whispered that you could get any girl you wanted
you told me that you wanted me
cas i was beautiful and had suttin that no one else did

i forgot to say goodbye when you left
i forgot to tell you how it felt
i wonder how long it may take
to count the raindrops
i forgot to say i cared

when im find myself walking back
through that path we once had passed
i wondered how long it would be
till you saw the fire and flame
i forgot to say love everyone

i forgot to say how it felt
i wonder how long it may take
to count the raindrops
and correct our mistakes
i hear you laugh
when its silent i can hear you next to me
dont give up on me

i forgot to say howwwwwwwwwwwwwww
how long does it take
how lonnggg
i wannnt you to knoww
theres no one else that i wanted to be
than to be there when you needed me

i forgot to say how it felt
i wonder how long it may take
to count the raindrops
and correct our mistakes
i softly whisper
...how long...

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 20:23:25 GMT

tell me 5 thing you think you know abt me.. dont use the same things as someone else...

IM SORRY ABOUT THE ATTITUDE I NEED TO GIVE TO YOU WHEN...

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 21:20:40 GMT

NO ONE ELSE WILL TAKE THIS SHIT FROM ME...

It's sitting by the overcoat,
The second shelf, the note she wrote
That I can't bring myself to throw away
And also
Reach she said for no one else but you,
Cuz you won't turn away
When someone else is gone

I'm sorry 'bout the attitude
I need to give when I'm with you
But no one else would take this shit from me
And I'm so
Terrified of no one else but me
I'm here all the time
I won't go away
It's me, yeah I can't get myself to go away
It's me, and I can't get myself to go away
Oh God I shouldn't feel this way

Reach down your hand in your pocket
Pull out some hope for me
It's been a long day, always ain't that right
And no Lord your hand won't stop it
Just keep you trembling
It's been a long day, always ain't that right

aint that right??? plz answer moi

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 23:45:58 GMT

a boy....